What kind of a feeling is that?

Mixed feelings and thoughts while my heart kind of ached through Graduation Day. I was extremely late for school due to to goddamn weather but nevertheless, we received a great gift from our teachers, which was more meaningful than anything they had put in the graduation pack. Now, at least we are confirmed with three subjects beating 4I: EM, AM, Phy. And another one or two most likely that we have outshined them would be Chinese and Chem. Great great news to hear. It was topped with relaxed lessons by Chan and Mr Ang.

Then after a 0925 recess was Graduation at 1000. We waited long at Level 1, then finally went up to hall. Outside hall was a photo gallery (very small-sized one) showing the past years we've been. I feel, we've really grown, and matured, through the 4 years, just like anyone else said upon our graduation.

We entered the dark hall with candlelight lined along the central aisle. Very euphoric. The ceremony was graced by senior GESSian Png Cheong Ann from ADB. As expected, his speech was very corporate and students all fell asleep. Then was the presentation of graduation packages by FC and BFC. And videos. Ours, I admit, was boring but I stayed the most awake and it was one of most meaningful. I would award the best to 4G which actually some sort stole our original idea. Actually, for the whole occasion, I had a slowly corroding heart beneath putting on a happy smile.

After the ceremony we went back to class when we played our usual. Really, I enjoyed that short session that did not last long at all and after which, I don't know why, everyone went all over. No one besides a few showed up at the canteen for refreshments. I still went to canteen and did not went Tiong. After almost everyone left, the whole feeling was very sad, the canteen looked very cold, I didn't like that feeling. It was really heartbreaking. This feeling is different from my last in-charge training, and will also be very different from ROD on 13 Oct.

The euphony already happened on Wednesday when we played soccer in the rain. Within an eye's blink, we have reached graduation from 2005. 4 years. This period of time wasn't at all long, neither was it short. The irony is that we did not see any change in people around us as we progress in GESS, but instead we would comment, hey, whoever was so different in Sec1 and look now, he/she is now a hunk/babe.

Like 4G's video, 10 years from now, will we still be in touch? Will we still remember these days? Will we still remember all the little happenings in everyday school life? Most importantly, will we still be one class? The answer is difficult, as we go seperate ways after Jan 15 next year.

Lastly, I have to thank at least 150 people who have made my life in GESS a complete piece. Without them, it would never have been the same.

I will stay committed to 4H, stay committed to GESS. The Dragon always lives in me, the Ship I always sail, striving ever Onward. It is a great honour, to have been a student of the greatest school in Singapore, to have been part of the greatest class.

Quotes I want to remember (and maybe live by) on this special day:
1. "Life is a drawing without an eraser"-by mr chan's SL video (a lot of people posted this)
2. "Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened"-taken from Karen's blog
3. "Nothing is constant, the only constant is change"-by Anonymus
4. "No one can ever control the winds, but everyone could adjust the sails"-that's what I have lived by.